I HAVE NO IDEA!!!

I have no idea of how my life is like
My dream to be invisible? Not a dream anymore
It's a fear, fear of being old and done
Fear of being too old and tired to try
Fear of being old and alone
Feels like I'm lost
Myself, my friends, my family, my school?
I'm losing everything that I had ever known
Am I losing my life?
I don't wanna be ordinary
I don't wanna be someone with no life
I wanna be outrageous, and courageous
I wanna be unexpected
I wanna lose myself and forget everything
I wanna shout and cry and laugh till there's no sound
I wanna kick and punch myself
I wanna get mad on her, my best friends, and all people in my life
I wanna give a kiss and hug, whispering "i love you" for once in my life
I wanna be "that girl"
I just wanna have fun




inka s